Maison de pierre 39
Chapter 39 "How you're right, it is very difficult to listen to another person, especially if it seems you do not understand. I even wanted to leave some time to read the book "house on rock. Negative emotions are overwhelmed, everything inside me resists, does not change. It seems to me, and it was good, why all these changes, but on reflection, I see that I'm not right. Somewhere in the background and barely noticeable, I agree with you. And I want to be with you, and I will. "Vick
/ comment on the book / Sonia
crying. She returned only club, collapsed on the bed, face against the cushion, without undressing, and sobbed. Although she did not understand why. Probably, that Andrey was so absorbed by the Internet, that all his requests to return, he replied: "Wait a little," and every half hour. Sonia was tired and hungry. The dark street was covered with a light drizzle. Sonia could no longer wait, it cost a taxi and she left, Andrey did not even notice it. And now she is in bed in a strange house, in a strange city in a foreign country. And nobody asked: "How are you?" Sonia cried and healthier than the stone that is in his heart is heavy, she did not even stir from her place. All her short life she had lived, as in a dream in the absurd. She went to school, she first tasted the wine, she felt faint, then she was raped by a stranger, she gave birth to a boy. If Sonia did not curse the day and time where the villain had assaulted a girl of fourteen, if every second of her life, she would not his death because he was deprived of his youth, first love, a first appointment, a shy first kiss. Sonia spent before all the wedding procession, and she saw stealing bridal bouquets. She has not felt a pleasant lightness of a white wedding dress. Nobody helped her bathe the baby, do not lead to the kindergarten, not reassuring when her son Pavel was ill. Sonia always did everything by herself. A plateau of such an overload, it was closing gradually. Sound asleep and then he turned into stone. Maybe he should not curse the father of Pavlik? Perhaps one effect of his curse on the soul remained Pavlik, because of that he was killed in the accident absurd? And now? Why of all people on earth, Sonia chose Andrei? She realizes it is a boy, a teenager who could be his son. Even the details of their passport with him, as Pavlik. He was born the same day and year that his son, but in another city. What is it, Sonia, looking at Andrei? All she has not had in his youth? Is that possible? Sonia knew that nothing can bring, and that his action in relation to Andrei, similar to that made in the night his father Pavlik. He had the weakness to Sonia and used his masculine strength. But Sonia, too, took advantage of a situation Andrei difficult? And she also had recourse to force. But it is a woman, her tears and everything. Now, Sonia saw clearly that Andrei like all children his age. And she is like her mother, tired, pregnant, not that by which he is interested. Sonia began to sob even harder. Fortunately, there is nobody at home. Around the world there is not one that could give comfort to Sonia. Only one thing: once again try to sleep, sleep, an illusion, to reassure her so that no other way. Sonia was crying until she fell ill while everything inside until she felt a huge rock on his soul that he could not breathe. Sonia began to cry
- Lord, my God! Why hast thou forsaken me? If you are, and you love me, as I heard from the convent of Mother Theodore, then plays me! Lord, help me, I die! Lord, Help me, save me!
Thus, Sonia screamed and sobbed for a while, then she fell asleep exhausted. In the dream, she saw a clear sky. Just a dull sky clear. She seemed to fly higher and higher, light as a feather. Suddenly, this soothing flight was interrupted by the fact that Sonia heard laughter, and then saw two angels. They laughed as if silver bells swinging in the breeze. Sonia wanted to watch them, the effort to accelerate the flight, but the Angels have stopped laughing.
- Do not come near us - stopped a little angel. - Not yet, not while we're still too small, and you're too dirty, not yet, but later, look at yourself.
Sonia suddenly was seen from the outside. It was a great bird with huge wings. Its feathers were falling drops of mud, a mud so sticky, like tar. If it fails to beat its wings gently, she can dirty angels.
Who are you, good angels, say your name and why you are all alone in the sky? - Sonia asked the angels. - We are your children, daughters, Marielle, and Isabelle. My name is Marielle. I can talk, but Isabella can not. We already live in your inner world. You can always contact us when you want. And we know all about you and all your world of blood relatives who lived before you. You call genealogy. But they are not here, because thou hast cursed and sent to hell, aliens, because you're miserable and always alone. And the generation of your father and yourself have cursed and is in hell.
Yes, when I cursed I do not even know them?
- You know, you know, Grandpa know we'll meet again, and it will take us to Kiev, and you, Mom, we could not kiss ever. And dad either.
Sonia thought his daughters are not yet born, girls will not be able to take her in his arms, because she had not yet cleared, and his father, because he is remained in the computer club.
- How can I wash myself?
- Go courageously against the tide of suffering, and suffering will you clean. Sew the wounds of your soul by the son of roads.
- And then I kiss you?
- You can, in the new world, where we'll all be together, where Pavlik.
- Do you know where Pavlik?
- I know, Mom, we know we'll all be together. The angels began to laugh a laugh supernatural, as if the bells were ringing in the wind.
- So me and you, we are also we are going to die?
- We're all gonna die!
- No, I do not want my children die! Sonia screamed to the entire universe. She cried in her sleep, she was awakened by his own cry, and at the same time someone with all his strength, knocked on the door. Sonia thought Andrei has returned, as fast as she could, she got out of bed and opened the door.
- Hello, I am a neighbor of Lubach deceased, her friend. We agreed to meet again with you tonight. Can I return?
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